Thursday, October 27, 2011

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Asalamua'laikum w.b.t

"SAAT INI"

Tik tok, tik tok. Kedeshh, kedessh, kedesssh. Jarum jam yang berdetak dan kipas yang berputar ligat membuatkan diri ini mengelamun sendiri. Lantas, menggeleng-geleng kepala sekuatnya, "uish jauh sudah mengelamun ni!" monologku keras. Haish, apalah aku mau buat ni tau, boring tul!. Dari siang tadi, lepas solat Subuh, zzZZZZ lagi balik. Astaghfirullah.. kosong! bila adik kejut, minta hantar pi sekolah, aku membalas dengan desahan yang agak panjang, "semalam orang tidur jam 2.30 ba...penat...". (Padahal, there is no one asked me to sleep so late). Hurm... Hidup macam tidak terpandu, hilang rasa. Pedas, manis, pahit? semua macam sudah sebati atas lidah kehidupan. Tapi, bila sampai bab makan?? my sister said, "you are infected! Food addiction!". hoho. bahaya-bahaya. Apakah yang sebenarnya yang kosong di dalam jiwa ni? Lapang tanpa isi, lalu di ganti dengan makanan? Badan pun erm... faham-faham la tu -_-'

So then, after I performed my solat Isya' , I tried recall myself. what happen to me? It's just emptiness. After all the thing that happen to me, I just feel like I am flying in the sky. Float on the water with my eyes looks to the sky. My sister said, You are just too free, nothing to do, that's why you tend to be like that. What about sumptuous life that I have right now? Isn't that enough to make me feel calm all the time? Hoho, Ya Rabb, I need You. Always need You.

At 7.30 PM, Hajar texted me. She asked me about our task as committee member in Seminar Pemerkasaan Mahasiswa that will be recommend soon, 20 November 2011, insyaAllah. So then, I feel something. I do work?! I have something to do?!. Yeah..I already found the answer, I need WORK. "Something to do". I forgot, people like me, can't stay sit at one place and do nothing, I need works! (In fact, sometimes, when I got too busy, I just can't handle myself -_-', huhu)

InsyaAllah, Najwa, arrange your schedule, you need to change! Don't let yourself drawn for things that commonly happen. Not only you that have to face disappointing, they are many peoples out there who also need to 'wait' like you ;)

Alright! Live my life from now on!
Cheers :D

Ok then,
See You Soon
InsyaAllah

Illalliqo'wa ma'assalamah




Monday, October 24, 2011


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

"Patience is something that is hard to explain"


Some people said to you " Be patience.. cool.." or "Don't act like a child!". But still, patience is something that is not easy to describe. It's inside you. Sometimes it makes you feel pressure, but sometimes it makes you feel more calm. To talk about 'patience', maybe we need some scientific theory right? So stop thinking about it theoritically :P, let's just go deep inside into "how to build patience in our life" :).

For me, a lot of things that happen in our daily life, make us someone that cannot control his or her temper. We easily feel angry and always tend to protect our pride with angriness. Despite it is a small thing that occur accidentally to us, we still tend to burst our angriness on that small little thing.

For example, when someone update his or her status on Facebook, even it is not for us, but as those words that she or he use is a little bit relate with our assumption, then we tend to judge and feel anxiety about it. Why? Hurm...

That's why we need "PATIENCE" :)

Patience when we feel angry,
Patience when we have to trough some medication,
Patience when your friends hurt you,
patience when no one appreciate you.
~Its all about Patience right?~

In Islam, there are many things that relate with patience. Allah said " For a moslem, good or bad, its all gonna be good for them" . When muslim/muslimah in happiness, then its good for them as it's easy for them to perform Ibadah, when in a sad situations, a moslem actually build up their strength and train them to face oncoming test with calm mind :)

InsyaAllah..
It's easy to run your finger and write this entry about 'patience', but to put patience in your chest as the test come to you?? hoho. Its not gonna be that fun :) Face it!

thats all for today :)
Miss You All

Illalliqo'wa ma'assalamah :)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

“Me”

5 October 2011.

When it comes to life, you have to remember that you’re not gonna decide on your own. There is something biggest than anything else that arrange you either you believed it or not. Today, my story, I am a little bit tired to front this world. But, is it the end of everything?. No!! I’m not gonna let it happen. I have another chance. Yes, I have it. First, I already got place to sit for medicine course in Trisakti’s University, but then, I don’t have scholarship :’(. MARA has changed their policies this year. They don’t send any student to Trisakti University anymore. Is it the end of everything?? I pray to Allah, hope it’s not gonna be like that. So, Uncle Ben tried hard to make me enter Gadjah Mada University. So then, he met the TNC or here, they called him as ‘rektor’. After some discusson, Uncle Ben told us, that ‘I am accepted’ @_@. But..... for next intact. Next year?? =_=’ . At first, I’m SAD. So....SAD :’(
But, then, Uncle Ben and my father cool me down. They told me to be strong. I am questioning in my mind.
=_=’ , is that how ‘ilmu’ is so EXPENSIVE??
+_+’ , is that how HARD to chase for Medicine Course??
 #_# , is that how far Allah gonna TEST me??

!_!, Ya Allah... it make me feel down... down until it’s hard for me to breath! Breath Najwa!! Breath!! I’m not strong enough Ya Allah.. is this how You want to trend me to be patience and strong. Everything that happen in my life, is always TEST. Oh God! This test has freaking me out!!
And now?
According to Pak Ben, I will continue my study at UMS for six month. Then, after six month, I will go to Gadjah Mada University for Medicine. My subjects in Nutritious course that related to Medicine will be transfer to Gadjah Mada after I get there.
What I’m gonna do next??

1. I will improve my skill to speak in English. I will!! insyaAllah.
2. I will get high pointer in Nutritious course. 4.00 falt @_@. Or at least, 3.9 =_+. InsyaAllah.

3. I want to decrease my fat. Huhu *_* [ehehe]

Don’t give up Najwa, your world not gonna end by all this simple stuff! It’s always happen. Not to you only. And you are not alone!! Remember that :’)

Oh Allah, I’m not gonna stand this without You :’)

To my father, I have nothing to say :’,( U just make me feel good all the time eventhough u are not in a stable economy right now. I just can say, I Love U father. Love U so much! :’) I’m not gonna forget all this things. It just make me learn and think. :’) Ohoho. My tears can’t stop! Ta Allah, bless my father, bless him please..... I beg You. Only You that I can hold to. Only You Allah.

It’s gonna be okay.... trust Allah! Trust yourself!!

wassalam.

"When patience is bitter, then the result will be sweet"