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Puisi Komitmen



Mari.
Mari telagah tentang songsang nya minda. 
Mari.
Mari telagah tentang sempitnya akal.


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Dia.
Wanita itu. Merayu dan minta pada hadirnya komitmen.
Katanya, "sudah matang. aku justeru mahu setia dan fokusnya cuma satu"
Mungkin penat. Mungkin juga sudah enggan bermain rasa.

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Dia pula. Menuntut 'cuba'. 
Kita 'cuba-cuba' dulu. 
Keluar-keluar berdua. Mungkin dalam pada itu, yang tiada rasa, mungkin 'ada' rasa. 

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Bodoh.
Kata hati wanitanya. 
Akal apa yang sebenarnya kau pakai?
Di 'cuba' aku, lepas tu kau talis-taliskan akhirnya bukan?
Tidak sesuai. Ya, lain jalan ku. 
Bangang level 5 kau mau aku kata padamu kan?

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Aku mundur.
Aku jelas aku tidak ada di mahu mu.
Kau yang 'cuba-cuba' justeru bukan pilihan yang tepat untuk aku. 
Jahanamkan saja permainanmu. 
Aku enggan menjadi participant dalam gamble perasaan yang kau cipta di rekayasa. 
Cari lain semahumu.

"Sebab aku menuntut komitmenmu. Jelas 'hanya' untuk aku" 

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Selepas berbual panjang dengan sahabatku :) Terdetik rasa mahu menulis. Yang cikai jak. Tapi cubalah fahamkan maksudnya. Ya? :) Betul. Aku setuju dengan nya. "Umur sudah meningkat ni Wa, takde mase nak fikir main-main dah. Kalau boleh nak orang yang betul-betul nak commit dengan kite. Kan Wa?" 

'Aku angguk tanpa suara. Berbalas senyuman' :)

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CatatanNajwa!

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