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Maybe that's the thing about human being. The neediness in us. We need other people, and others need us. What is the different of being need and being used? How do we differentiate it? Because some people told me, "You just don't give her any chance lah Najwa. She is just using you.".  For me, as long as I'm not depleted, I'm not in harm, and I'm not hurt for what they are asking for, I consider it as 'the need', not 'used'. And yeah, it tend to be quite similar somehow, because the occasion or 'timing' is quite the same. People only come to you when they 'need' something. But are their 'needs' harming you? Can you still cope and help to fulfill their 'need'? Yes. Then it is a 'need', not 'used'. Those people just 'need' you. And do make yourself open for that. Because I do believe, today, someone need you and you open yourself to give, tomorrow, someone else from nowhere will ...

Siapa juga yang hatinya tidak sungguh untuk sayang dan mahu di sayangi? Kita. Semua . Menuntut perhatian dan kasih sayang. Tapi perlu beza. Kasih sayang yang bagaimana? Jelas? Atau yang kabur berselingkuh? Antara mahu dan ketidakmahuan. Haprak teruk. Bila datang nya cuma bila kau ber kapasiti dan potensi! Cis! sayang bermatlamat! Jangan bodoh sis! Dah tu, bila kau nampak 'longlai' tanpa potensi, kau di perlekeh macam rubbish! That is rubbish! Beza! Please!  Pengalaman akan ajar kita bezakan kasih sayang- kasih sayang jenis bermatalmat dan haprak macam tu. Takpa. Slow-slow Kita semua pun belajar dari pengalaman :) Jangan terlalu menghukum diri. In shaa Allah. In the end. You'll be better and gorgeously okay! Selamat malam. Dr wawa Meh, belanja satu lagu. hehe. Stand on your two feet sis! This is the year of your freedom and in-dependency towards any haprak love! 

That evening. I went to the ward, actually searching for a case so that I can present it the next day. Then I met one uncle whom really open my eye regarding gratitude :) Thank you Allah, for the message.  Few days back was actually quite a tough day for me, because for the first time I had that kind of severe skin allergy. Worst, I can't even elicit which is which as the causative agent. Either food, water that I used to get bath, towel that I shared, washing machine that we shared, don't know! And my skin swollen like hell. Patchy reddish swelling pop up progressively over the medial aspect of my arm. And yah -_- itchy beb. I was like scratching all over and everywhere , tanpa mengira tempat! *emoticon gelak nangis*  I went to GP, and they gave prednisolone and citrizine. And it does helped alhamdulillah. But before that, ya, I prescribed something on my own, like moisturizer and supplement for skin la kan. Haha. Memandai kan. In deniable state actually ='D Don...

To : Najwa Sayang :) And we are almost there dear. Through all the honey sweet memories to the obstacles that suck the good in us. Never stop! Dream on! DREAM ON Sayang! In shaa Allah, something AWESOME and GORGEOUSLY BETTER is waiting for you ;)