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" Kerana Mu Ya Rabb, ku ikhlaskan "

Terpandang ke langit biru, hati bungkam. Mendongak ke siling rumah, hati berkuiz sendiri.  Badan di pusing ke kiri ke kanan. Persoalan yang menanti jawapan. Betulkah setiap langkah yang ana ambil ni? Adakah diri ana melawan arus ketentuanMu ya Rabb. Tatkala sahabat-sahabat ana sudah menadah ilmu di gedung knowlegde Universiti Malaysia Sabah, ana masih lagi menghitungkan detakan jarum jam, bilakah ana mau pi sambung belajar ni? Ya, memang ana dah dapat tempat, ana dah buat passport, visa dan hanya tinggal terbang sahaja lagi ke Tanah Jakarta Republik Indonesia, tapi... sedikit sebanyak, penantian itu menggugat keyakinan dan menimbulkan prasangka yang tiada berkesudahan. Astaghfirullah.. jauhkanlah hati hambaMu ini dari keraguan, tetapkanlah ia pada "niat dan pendirian".


Sahabat-sahabat ana ada juga yang mengkuiri keputusan ana, "betulkah mahu jadi doctor ni?", " oh... ndapa... orang banyak duit~ senang la mahu urus". Walau hati sedikit tersinggung, tapi, ana terima, mungkin, pada pandangan manusia.. ana hanya terhegeh-hegeh ingin mengambil juga bidang ini. Tapi.. ana nak beritahu ya :),


Result ana di bincang antara dekan-dekan Perubatan di sana Perbincangan meja bulat di buat. Dan, mereka TERIMA. Dan itu membuktikan, bukan duit yang membolehkan seseorang itu dapat memasuki satu-satu course yang diminati. Kalau memang tak layak, tak mungkin dapat jugak tu. Dan itu lebih meyakinkan diri ini ;) InsyaAllah... Dan, walau apa pun, rezeki itu, Allah lah yang menentukannya :)

Tetapi, tidak dapat di sanggah, kadang-kadang timbul keraguan, namun, adakah itu melemahkan keinginan? InsyaAllah, TIDAK sekali-kali. Ana kuat kerana yakin padaNYa. InsyaAllah, jika niat terpandu untuk lebih dekat pada Maha pencipta, tiada lemah & was-was. Semua, ku serah bulat-bulat padaNYa.
 PadaNYA.

Jika Allah izinkan ana ke sana juga, insyaAllah, itulah jawapan untuk setiap persoalan ana. I'll do my best. First for Allah, Rasulullah, and my parent that contribute too much in this progress. Too much, it's just not easy for me to give up, not so easy and never gonna be easy! Never give Up!

Tidak akan putus asa dengan rahmatNya.
InsyaAllah.. (^^,)
Semua untuk Mu & Islam! insyaAllah..
For all moslem women, I'll do my best to help all of u ;)

Illalliqo'wama'asslamah.

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