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Wake up my mind - 2018 :)


"Prof, if you don't mind, I want to ask you something after this class"

"Why? just ask here. Everyone here is your friend. They're all girls"

"Ya laa" -the other seems interested.

'After several explanation'

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'Okay, based on your story, I know already what is your old disease'

'It is Ovarian dysgerminoma'

With slow voice, 'You study well, finish your study, and get married as soon as you finish your study'

"How many years prof after I finish my study I can wait?" - takung dah air mata. lol

'As soon as you finish your study'

'If you nak tambah rezeki, you kawin awal'

And that girl of me, burst into tears. This is really not a joke.

'But whatever, Serah Kepada Allah'

*Ya, this is all about rezeki. Tapi rezeki tanpa usaha. Allah tak beri. Mohon yang terbaik dari sisiNya* 
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And I don't really expect that tips.

But saat dan detik itu. Hati mula serah. 

Someone leaves me when I'm in despair. And what do you expect when troublesome thingy come into my life after this. Will he stay?No, he will leave. The same thing he will do to you later on. 

And I don't play victim anymore.

If he's not the one for you. Leave. And build your own life Najwa. 

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So in shaa Allah. 

2018 is the year. I choose this year. In shaa Allah. Under mission and sepenuh tawakal padaNYA. After I finish my MBBS. 'Anyone' yang thru' my mother. And my family accept him, he's the one. I won't choose anyone now. 

Kenapa Najwa selalu sebut, 'tidak mahu bercinta' tapi 'kawan'.

Bercinta tu kepura-puraan. Kawan saja kita sudah saling kenal hati budi. Tapi peletakkan 'kawan' inilah yang bahaya. Ia akan buat kau selalu confuse.   

After marriage is something yang you can call 'cinta'. Sebab lebih terpandu. Halal. Rahmat dan Tenang. 

'Susah sangat orang nak faham kita kan?' lol.

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Dan tidak ada yang lebih murahan for me other than ayat 'relationship goal' bagai. Come on, I'm 24 soon. I want something serious. Bukan cuba-cuba. Nak bercinta, biar aim kahwin. Bukan just kenal-kenal. I've seen too much. Too much hurts. Too much irresponsible thingy. And please, don't even attempt if you're not serious. 

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SERAH PENUH. 

'And my husband, always gonna be my first love'

Aiseh. Gedik la kau. lol. 

'Eh, orang lain boleh, why not me' 

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So, In shaa Allah. Dr Najwa will build her life within this 1 and a half year. My aim is 'family goal'. Bukan relationship goal. Itu semua poyo. 

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Najwa percaya, jodoh Allah atur :)

To mom who will always scroll my blog :) If , after your daughter dapat kerja, and she don't have a good calon, your daughter mohon dicarikan :) In shaa Allah, mom knows me better than any other person. 

#DrNajwaDeBams

Serah Penuh.
Dan bersedialah untuk kematian dari sekarang Najwa. Ini jodoh yang semua orang wajib jumpa.
#Lahaulawalaquwwataillabillah
#Tawakaltua'laAllah


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