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Degil

Degil. Dari dulu, anak yang *agak* degil itu. Aku. Luls. Yang banyak sikit calar di badan nya itu. Aku. Sebab DEGIL. 

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Kurang pasti. Either one. Positive nya stubborn dengan negative nya stubborn. But one thing. Macik sorang ni. Dia memang 'hard to control' nya orang.

*I still remember*

Accident basikal dengan adik lelaki aku. Gara-gara degil. Senyap-senyap bawak my younger brother keluar dari kawasan rumah. Konon nya mau jadi tourist guide. Ndak boleh tengok adik duduk rumah ja. Not adventurous. Last-last, calar-calar muka adik lelaki aku. Aku? Sembunyi dalam bilik. Seb bek bapak ndak mengamuk. Diorang matang tangani kes aku. Maaf di terima. Ehe.

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Second case, bila aku degil. Pas dapat lesen kereta. Eager mau bawak kereta. Nekad! "Kalau bapak ndak kasi ni. Aku keluar senyap-senyap". *Kau*. Tengok semangat degil aku tu? Mengalah kan beruang kutub.Eh?

So, makcik ajak pegi Sipitang. Jarak agak 2 jam dari tempat aku tinggal. Bapak confirm ndak bagi ni. Kau dah plan, bila bapak keluar, kau just buat called last minute ja nanti. So, bapak had no time untuk bantah kau. *Kau fikir*. Degil aku bukan biasa-biasa k.  

Plan berhasil. Semua ber jalan lancar. Bapak 'ter paksa' lepas. No choice. Otw. Aku selamat ja. Cool ja. Balik tu. Tiba-tiba stereng keras and ter lock! HOI! Siot panik!. Dah la konvoi dengan makcik tu semua perempuan. Suami-suami semua tinggal di rumah. luls. 

Rupanya, belting putus. Hampeh* 

Aku, "Ok lah, pengajaran nya. Bila bapak cakap jangan. Dengar and taat ja!"

Aunty-aunty aku, "Adui, ini lah kalau jalan tanpa suami di sisi~" luls. 

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Seterus nya. Kau degil jugak. Degil mau sambung pengajian bidang perubatan. Tapi yang ini. Beza nya. Bukan kau tidak putus asa dari kedegilan kau. Tapi 'ada orang' yang support kau untuk kekal ber degil. 

Kata nya, buat apa terus kan something yang kau ndak minat. No passion, no desire. True. So pindah course --> Food Science and Nutrition (UMS) ---> MBBS (QIUP)

*Dan sekarang. Alhamdulillah :) Tuhan beri jalan dan aku terus melangkah. Moga terus di mudah kan. Ujian ber liku. Tapi aku kena usaha sampai pada apa yang di tuju :) aiseh# mohon doa*

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Degil lagi. Bila kawan kata, "Jangan ber sahabat dengan lelaki. Tiada konsep 'close friend' kalau dengan orang lelaki". Ada betul nya :) And lesson learned.

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Itu lah kan. I also don't know. Am I sebenar nya 'degil' atau~ 'adventurous" ? Eager to discover the world? Maybe. hee.

Sampai satu tahap, mom did say to me, "Ah, adik tu. Kalau mau jalan ke mana-mana. Kalau 'tanya' tu, bukan untuk keizinan. Untuk 'tell' ja." luls. Bukan mom boleh say no pun. Ini memang time extreme muda-muda dulu. 

*Now*

Ehe. Ada kurang sikit. Sebab bila kau dah merantau ni. Kau hargai every space and time with your family. Apa-apa mintak izin. If they say no, you'll follow them. *kind of* :)

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Too adventurous vs degilness.

Which one?

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Hee :) Tepuk dada tanya minda ;)

Nite2.

NukilanRasa


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