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The guilt prisoner

Pernah tidak?
Ter jebak dalam rasa bersalah yang melampau?
Seolah kau dah buat satu dosa yang tidak mungkin ter ampun kan.

Pernah?

Mungkin aku seorang ja yang feel that way* sigh

Kau.
Dah buat semuanya.
Dah jatuh kan ego centralis devil face tu berkali-kali.
Minta ampun. 
Minta di lepas kan dari persepsi. 

Tapi.
Bila kau renung kembali. 

"Kau tidak mampu" 

Sama saja kau tunduk atau pun tidak.
Kau tetap si pendosa itu. Yang ter lekat gam gajah dengan dosanya. 

Adakah ini tanda. Yang kau ni baik sangat?
Jarang buat silap. Sekali buat. Kau rasa macam bunuh orang berkali-kali.
Dah. Jangan mengarut*

Sesetengah hati. 
Mungkin Tuhan tidak cipta untuk memaafkan.
Dan mungkin.
Sesetengah hati.
Tuhan pasak ia untuk membenci mu.
Supaya kau kekal kukuh belajar. 
Belajar... yang cuma pandangan Tuhan saja satunya perlu kau pelihara. 

Kau memang pendosa itu. 
Tapi jangan pernah berputus asa dari rahmat dan ampunanNya. 

Kau memang pendosa itu. 
Tapi ampunanNya lebih besar dari dosa-dosamu. 

Now.
You still inquire people's perception. That's why you still stayed in that prison. 
Let them think what they want. 

Somehow.

Haterz make you famous  ;) aiseh

Tenang.
Mahu mu. 
Tenang saja apa yang ada di mahu mu. 
#Mogakaumemperolehinya 

NukilanRasa
Post-post emo kebelakangan ini.
Pre-menstrual syndrome kot :P


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